Thursday, December 8, 2016

How I Sabotaged My Own Dreams...

Or almost did anyway.

Something you may not know about me is that I'm a "play it safe" sort of gal.

I like to have money in my savings account, I never buy lottery tickets, and the only gambling I've done is $20 on slot machines in the Bahamas (using $20 my husband gave me).

I wear my seatbelt no matter how far I'm going, I lock every single window/door in my house when I'm home alone, and I wore knee pads playing high school basketball.  No really....I did.

Many people would call me conservative, but I believe it's truly due to my introverted personality.

So, this is how I almost sabotaged my own dreams!

That and the fact that, as a mom, I saw very little need or means to invest time or money in myself.  Boy, did I change my mind about that one.  And I'm so glad I stepped outside my comfort zone to do it.  Best decision ever.

I just started thinking about this recently because Laurel just turned 4 months old and we are just now getting through some pretty tough days weeks with her - more on that later.  And I'm just SO grateful that I'm not in the mental/physical space now that I was in at this point with my son.

With CT I struggled with postpartum and was in a pretty dark place emotionally for a while.  I cried a lot and secluded myself from almost everyone and really just stuck to myself.  I was sad for lack of a better word and I didn't know how to communicate that without people thinking (and me feeling) like I was a terrible mother.

Thinking back, I should have sought help much sooner.  I should have taken the survey at the doctor's office more seriously and really considered the questions as I answered them.  I should have reached out to someone, but I didn't know how.  I eventually found an incredible group of positive, empowering, supportive women who completely changed my life.  Cliche as it may.

Shortly after finding this group I decided I was destined to share it with other women just like me.  I'm talking women who are not fitness experts, who fail in the kitchen, who prefer jammies and wine to clubs and heels, who went to school or didn't, who mom hard or don't, any woman.  All women.

This group helped me in SO many ways; ways they didn't even know about and I didn't realize I needed.  I lost the baby weight and gained friendships, financial security, self-confidence, pride, community, knowledge, and so much more.

I just think about how much my life has changed in the last 2 years and how it has positively impacted me as a mother this second go-round.  I'm not sad anymore.  I'm not crying in the Old Navy fitting room.  I'm not having an anxiety attack in the line at the grocery store.  I'm not self-sabotaging or filled with self-hatred.  I'm not saying life's a peach.  It's definitely been tough and there have been some really rough days figuring out what's going on with my sweet baby girl, BUT nothing like what I went through with CT (who was the easiest, happiest, go-luckiest baby in all the land).  And I'm grateful because I do understand that hormones have a lot to do with it, but I also know even if I had had a similar experience this time, I have the support, friendship, and LOVE that I was lacking as a first time mom.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Hello, I missed you...

Really, I did.  I felt compelled today to venture over to some blogs I love reading and have absently ignored the past 5 months and it hit me: Let's write!

Truth is, I have nothing to say and a ton to say all at the same time.  It's been what seems like forever since I wrote last and I've missed you.  I know this is just a tiny space in the big ole internets, but I feel like we have a neat thing going here.  Let me stop before it gets even more awkward...

So I'm back in my unscheduled, imperfect ways.  I will most likely share too many pictures of my sweet new bambino (and obviously the birth story) and her big brother.  And will most definitely pour my heart out from time to time because...life.  I couldn't imagine it any other way.


Thursday, May 19, 2016

Clean Grilling Group


As I embarked on this healthy lifestyle journey I'm on, the one thing I struggled with most was the nutrition part of it.  I know what good fuel for my body looks like and I know that I love it!  What I struggle with is making sure there is enough variety in my life (and that it's not too time consuming) so that I don't get bored eating the same things over and over.

So, I put together an awesome meal plan for my Clean Grilling Group that starts May 23rd.  I purposely selected the dates so that if there is something you love on the menu, you can share that recipe with your families on Memorial Day!

The group is 7 days and you can expect yummy recipes for breakfast+lunch+dinner each day, a pre-made shopping list to make your life easy, a giveaway for the most engaged participant, and some weeknight tips to make meal prep/nutrition easier with a family.

If you're interested in joining us, please click here and fill out the form!

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Life by Design


I was on my way to work this morning listening to the radio and people were calling in sharing recent experiences that sort of made them thankful.  At least, that's what it appeared.  I honestly wasn't listening too intently - I was busy having a conversation about the bumble bees and frogs on my toddler's blankies.  (way more important)

But something one of the callers said caught my attention and it made me listen a little harder.
"You make my day go by faster."

I cringed when I heard it and I thought - that's what I do.  Every day when I'm at work and my son is at school I try to figure out ways to make my day go by faster.  I want it to end so that I can go pick him up and take him home and spend time with him.  I'm wishing my life away.

And I'm in this sweet spot right now where I'm raising my baby and awaiting the arrival of Baby Girl and I should NOT be wishing any of this time away.  I should be soaking it in, relishing it, and praying for it to slow down.  Because the days may be long, but the years are short and already they are flying by too fast.

We are in this age when we don't have to be tied down to someone else's schedule, someone else's expectations, we can create a life by design and by golly, I'm going to do it.  I never want to say again - "I hope this day passes quickly."

I'm in this place in my business where I've rewritten my life by design and I'm so excited to be able to do the things I want to do, when I want and how I want to do them.  I want this for everyone.

Friday, May 6, 2016

You Just Had to Learn it for Yourself.


Courage doesn't always roar.  

I'm learning this as I'm riddled with anxious excitement over what is happening in my business, for my teammates, and how it is affecting my family.  See, when I started my health & fitness coaching business, I really had high hopes and big dreams, but I didn't voice them too loudly.  For fear...

What if they didn't happen?
What if everyone knew?
What if?

Like it's safer to not try at all than to put yourself out there for potential failure.  Have you ever felt that way?  Best not to try at all?

Yesterday I took another big step toward my goals and registered to become a certified Nutrition + Wellness Consultant.  In hindsight, I'm surprised I didn't go into a field like this fresh out of high school.  I was the typical tomboy high school athlete, but I guess I took the conservative safe route by going into education.  So, 10 years into my career why not make that dream come true?!

If it's one thing I'm learning on this journey it's that this is a journey - there doesn't have to be a finish line and just because I've gone down one path doesn't mean the doors are closed to another.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Why I Stopped Doing Monthly Updates


So, I know with second children (or thirds or fourths) the bumpdates typically fall by the wayside.  And you may or may not have noticed that that has been the case around these parts.  Truth is: that's not a symptom of second-child pregnancy.  It's been a conscious decision.

Here's the thing:  After having CT, I worked hard to get into shape again.  To feel like me!  And with that came a lot of weight loss, a ton of muscle strengthening, loads of self-confidence, and a passion for being healthy so that I can be the best mom ever to my family.

And I've done that.  I'm in a much better place than I was before and as a result this pregnancy has been much smoother and healthier.

But, I noticed that I started to cringe and stress each time I stepped on that scale to do my weekly weigh-in.  I started to freak out a bit inside if the number was getting bigger.  I even went so far as asking the nurse to check and make sure my weight gain was acceptable.  To which she responded, "Girl, you're on the low end of the spectrum - stop worrying."

But, I couldn't stop thinking about it you guys.

So, I decided to stop getting on the scale except for the days I had to step on at the doctor office.  Those are required and good so that I can keep things in check.  But, what had started as a weekly weigh-in at home to monitor and record progress had turned into multiple times a week or even more than once a day!

And that's just not okay with me.  It shouldn't be for you either.

I'm not throwing away the scale and I'm not saying the only reason I did bump-dates was to track my weight, but I realized I can track these moments in different ways.  I typically update every other week or so on my Facebook page and I snap lots of little moments in between on Instagram so I can always look back on those when I decide to.

Pregnancy is absolutely beautiful and I'm not about to ruin it by stressing about things that are natural.  And good!

Monday, May 2, 2016

Mother's Day 2016 Gift Guide

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This Mother's Day I'm requesting a black pair of Birkenstock sandals.  Last year my husband got me a brown pair of Birkenstock thongs and I have worn them religiously - comfiest shoe ever.  But, if I were to make a wish list for mothers everywhere, these are some of the items that would be on it.

What are you doing to celebrate Mother's Day this year?