Focus on the Now

I haven't said much about it yet because we were really waiting for things to be more concrete before sharing the news with the world, but my husband recently took a new position with a new bank.  This means lots of change and newness for us in the coming 6-12 months.

A few definites include moving, new neighbors, and a new schedule.  There are also lots of other indefinites that I've already started concerning myself with.  Many of which won't even happen in the next 12 months; more like the next 2-3 years!

The other day a family member asked me what I thought of it all and I immediately focused on my fears, the change, the unknown, and what's to come 2-3 years down the road.  She looked at me and said, you can't think about that!  You have to focus on the now.

And wow.  Yes.  I needed to hear that!

I've spent a lot of time lately focusing on the future.  I have finally trained myself to stop dwelling on the past, but this feeling of anxiety has become so normal at this point that I'm comfortable with it.  And I'm realizing, it's not okay.  I don't like it.  I need to change.

There are so many things that I'm concerning myself with that aren't necessary!  It's time to focus on the present.  I mean, my husband took a new position with a new bank.  This is amazing!

I am so proud of him and proud to be his wife.  I am excited for where this journey is going to take our family.  I am happily looking at real estate.  It is hard not to think of the future and there are certain futuristic things we must take into account now, but I'm going to choose to live for the NOW.

It's kinda like when I decided to start coaching.  There were a ton of "what-ifs" going through my head and had I focused on them or let them overrun my thoughts, I wouldn't have ever signed up!  I would have let my anxiety and my fears keep me from doing something that I absolutely love.

I wouldn't be chasing my dream; I'd still be dreaming it.