The One We are Hardest On

There are things that I say to myself on a daily basis that I would never say to my friends.

Like never.

You know the T Swift song, Haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate...  Sometimes I'm my biggest hater!  Seriously!  I should be my biggest cheerleader!  But no, I'm the whisper in the back of my mind saying: You will fail.  You can't grow.  You will never accomplish your goal.

And it kills me.  It leaves me with this overwhelming sense of anxiety and defeat.  And I must stop.  

I guess it comes with the territory of setting your goals high and keeping things scary.  I'm always on edge with fingers crossed hoping/wishing/working to make the next thing happen.  And if I'm being honest, I love it.  I never would have thought I'd like this entrepreneurial lifestyle being the conservative chronic rule follower that I am.

I just have to learn to balance it all.  I need to realize that I've already accomplished a lot in just 9 months of coaching.  And my family's well being is not contingent on this.  It is something I love doing and, of course, I want to do it well.

As I've been working toward these goals and my business keeps building, I've realized the importance of surrounding yourself with positive energy.  There are days when I am my own biggest BULLY.

I'm so glad I found this community that I've found because I can't even begin to describe the overwhelming sense of: "it's all going to be okay" that it gives me!  And I need that.  I know me well enough by now to know that I need that sense of okay-ness in order to be okay.

I know me well enough to know that I'm going to get down and defeated about once a month; I can typically plot it out on the calendar when it will happen.  Ladies, you know.  But, I also know it's going to pass.  I just wish I could figure out a way to handle the meanness that I show myself in a more positive manner.

So, let's make a pact to be nicer to ourselves, shall we?  We deserve more cheerleaders in our lives.