Number 2 Changes Everything

If I could put into words how much I love this sweet girl (and her brother), I would.  Truth is, I'll never do it justice.  However, having a baby in the house again has been...an adjustment.

If I had it my way I would have babies in the house all the time; I love babies.  However, multiples changes things up a bit.  Now, this time around I didn't struggle with Postpartum Depression and that has been a huge blessing, but there have been other struggles.  Not just the ones we've experienced with L, but ones that I've had to adjust to.

Like just not feeling myself yet.  Recently I hadn't been giving as much of myself as I normally would and a beautiful friend of mine simply stated that she missed it.  And, you guys, I needed to hear it because I was in this place where I felt like I wasn't really worthy of sharing much.  Like, who was I to be lifting others up?  

So, I've gotten back to my giving spirit and I'm so grateful this friend mentioned it to me.  She then also said, "Baby number 2 really changes us."  And yes, yes it does.  In good ways and in hard ways.  Not bad ways.  And it's just navigating the change that takes a little time.

I guess I share this to say if you're feeling the same, you will get through it.  It's what I like to call the newborn haze.  You can't see past it until you're through it and sometimes it takes a good 6 months.