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Monday, January 28, 2019

Unraveled


My life literally feels like it's been flipped upside down and it's sitting on my chest.  I'm laying underneath it struggling to breath and can't seem to figure out what normal is supposed to be because I know I will not go back to the normal I've known. 

Writing about it seems the only logical thing so that I can get some of it out of my head and maybe this will be cathartic or at the very least therapeutic...
And at the same time I find myself wondering if I should even be writing this.  I've got this innate desire to protect and control and hide everything which I'm learning isn't really me...it's my survival tactics kicking in.  It's what I've been doing for the past 5+ years and I'm having to learn that I can be unapologetically me without feeling this deep rooted need to fix others.

When I started going through this process I kept googling things trying to find someone out in the universe that was going through or has gone through what I am right now and I couldn't find anyone.  I wasn't looking for a self help book or a therapist - I've got plenty of those.  I was looking for a CONNECTION, someone who could tell me it's going to be hard and it's going to suck, but it's going to get better.  And I couldn't find that. 

So, I decided that I am going to use this story I've been given to be that connection for other women.  Other moms who may walk in my shoes one day.  I don't necessarily know that what I share will be helpful or inspiring, but at least it will be relatable.  Because I know when your whole world seems to be crashing down around you the one thing you want to feel is NOT  ALONE. 

If you're finding this post because you are unraveling, know that you are not alone.  WE are not alone.

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